Second time

February 8, 2013 Leave a comment

mungkin ini yang kedua kali dihitung dari waktu itu. entah lah ini bener atau nggak. menurut gue sih ini sedikit bener. 

ini sebenernya aib yang gak boleh dikasih tau apa lagi lewat tempat kayak gini. tapi gue mau ngomong juga agak susah. writing better than speaking. i swear. 

laki laki ini dulu udah pernah nyakitin. mau nyakitin lagi? gila lo!! muka lo mau taruh dimana kalo lo mau ngelakuin hal yang sama didepan semuanya? stupid. ini bukan untuk diri lo aja, ini buat semuanya. mau gak selamat? gue sih do’ain biar lo selamat dunia akhirat, tapi kalo lonya gitu mending gak usah selamat. apa gunanya sellamat kalo lo masih kayak gitu? HAHA.

gue mau buktiin ini bener atau nggak. terserah mau gue teror atau gue apain yang penting semua kebukti. dan semoga ALLAH SWT mengizinkan saya melakukan penelitian ini. sekian

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Another ways to reach my goals

January 2, 2013 Leave a comment

Hari ini itu.. kayak gue jatuh dari lantai 100 suatu gedung paling tinggi di dunia, yang tertusuk ribuan kulit durian, dan dibebani oleh batu dengan berat 10000kg yang persis ada diatas dada gue. Tau kan rasanya? Sakit dan nyesek tentunya.

Itu yang gue rasain dari semalem. Jam 2 pagi nangis sesegukan kayak anak bayi 3 bulan yang diambil dot-nya sama orang lain. Mau tidur susah, tapi mau melek juga mata udah gak bisa kompromi buat melek lebih lama. Bener – bener tersiksa. Paksain dah tuh mata yang masih berceceran air mata yang sangat berharga yang keluar ditengah malem. Tapi tetep aja masih bercucuran. Ngeliat orang yang tidur disebelah juga takut, kalo ketauan nangis jam segitu, apa kata dunia? Apa yang ditangisin ditengah malem gitu? Pacar? Mantan? Ha-ha-ha sinting. Kayak gak ada yang lebih bagus pilihannya. Gue terus aja nangis sampe kira – kira jam 3-an dan akhirnya gue.. tidur.

Pagi menjelang, kepala pusing, mata bengep kayak abis ditonjok tapi gak ada bekas memar, rambut acak – acakan dan muka beneran muka bantal. Seketika gue inget nilai itu. Jujur sampe tidur aja gue masih mikirin itu nilai gue kayak apa. Betapa ‘indahnya’ mereka bertengger di antara nilai – nilai yang lain yang terlihat sempurna disana. Mereka merusak pemandangan, tapi itu kenyataan. Nilai itu, angka itu, dan huruf itu telah tertera disana. Gue udah berupaya semaximal mungkin buat memahami dan mengerti pejarannya, tapi mengapa tidak sebanding dengan apa yang gue dapet. Itu tuh…. sedikit gak adil menurut gue. Entahlah..

Inikah jalan yang harus gue ambil untuk mendapatkan semua yang gue impikan dan gue ingin raih di kehidupan ini? Jika ini jalan yang telah disiratkan dan telah ditulis oleh Allah SWT, dengan sabar, semangat dan senyuman akan gue lakuin. Demi Mama, Papa dan semua orang yang terlalu berharga untuk dilukai oleh gue.

Maaf untuk Mama dan Papa… Untuk saat ini Icha emang belum bisa memberikan yang terbaik untuk kalian. Tapi Icha janji, Icha akan memberikan yang terbaik bahkan terbaik dari yang terbaik untuk kalian. Maaf untuk kali ini.. Icha gak mau ngecewain Mama dan Papa lagi dengan apa yang telah Icha perbuat dengan nilai yang sangat tidak memuaskan ini. Icha akan memperbaiki ini dengan senang hati dan tanpa beban, Icha hanya butuh dukungan moral dan do’a dari kalian berdua yang sangat berharga buat Icha. Sorry for make you disappointed like this. I love you Mom and Dad

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24-07-12

July 24, 2012 Leave a comment

hallo~

udah lama ya gak update di wp saya tersayang :3 *peluk*

hari ini hari penuh dengan emosi. dimulai dari keponakan tersayang ulang tahun, sampe cerita temen gue yang berhasil bikin gue nangis ngebelakangin nyokap.

cerita temen gue yang berhasil bikin gue nangis. ceritanya cukup tragis tapi berakhir sweet. itu yang dinamakan tegar + berhasil bikin hidup seseorang menjadi lebih berarti. dia hebat banget. suka sama cewe sampe dia akhirnya dapetin dia, namun berakhir dengan sang cewe meninggal karena penyakit yang gak bisa ditolelir lagi. Ini emang seimbang. Dulu selama 3 tahun, temen gue gk bisa sama dia. Tapi disaat cewenya temen gue butuh seseorang yang bisa dijadiin tonggak buat dia, temen gue ada.

Allah sangat adil. Bahkan sangat amat adil. Semua udah direncanakan olehNya. Meski sakit, itu adalah pilihan yang sudah Allah kasih ke kita. Beruntunglah kita, kita masih dikasih kesempatan bisa seperti itu.

RIP for ex-gf temen gue. semoga lo disana bahagia. dia disini bahagia. meski gue baru kenal dia beberapa hari yang lalu =)

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When i can’t sing lyric by Se7en

April 19, 2012 Leave a comment

Romanization

Nega modeungol irodo ne ingiga ttorojyodo

Do isang norel mothago dareun jigobeul gajyodo

Naraneun iyumaneuro nal gyesok saranghe jul su inni

 

Hwamyone naoneun ne moseubi jinjja ne jonbuga aniran gon algo inneunji (algo inneunji)

Jasin gam nomchineun ne moseubi nal do buranhage haneun gon algo inneunji (algo inneunji)

Hwaryohan jomyong soge soinneun moseup dwie jinhan geurimjaga jigo isso

 

Nega modeungol irodo ne ingiga ttorojyodo (nega)

Do isang norel mothago dareun jigobeul gajyodo

Naraneun iyumaneuro nal gyesok saranghe jul su inni

 

Noneun nal saranghanda hajiman niga saranghaneun ge jongmal nega matneunji (nega matneunji)

Naege banetdago hajiman noreul banhage han ge jongmal nega matneunji (nega matneunji)

Nega naye pumane angyo nal barabol tte iron jilmuneul hago sipo

 

Nega modeungol irodo (marya) neingiga ttorojyodo (ttorojyodo)

Do isang norel mothago dareun jigobeul gajyodo

Naraneun iyumaneuro nal gyesok saranghe jul su inni

 

Onjen ganoge dwegetji (oge dwegetji)

Hamsong soriga jurodeun mudereul neryowaso

Ne okkega chojimyonso (okkega chojigo)

Gogega ttolgwojil tte (geuttedo) ne yope (ne yope) niga so isseullonji

 

Nega modeungol irodo ne ingiga ttorojyodo

Do isang norel mothago dareun jigobeul gajyodo

Naraneun iyumaneuro ne yope issojul su itgenni mutgo sipo

 

 

Translation

 

Even if I lose everything, if my popularity drops
Even if I can’t sing, if I get a different job
Will you still be able to love me for who I am?

Do you know that who I am on screen isn’t really my everything? (Do you know?)
Do you know that my overflowing confidence makes me even more anxious? (Do you know?)
Standing under the flashing lights, there is a thick shadow behind me
Even if I lose everything, if my popularity drops
Even if I can’t sing, if I get a different job
Will you still be able to love me for who I am?

You say that you love me but
Am I really who you love? (Am I?)
You say that you fell for me but
Am I really the one who made you fall for me? (Am I?)
When you are in my arms, looking at me
I want to ask you these questions

Even if I lose everything, if my popularity drops
Even if I can’t sing, if I get a different job
Will you still be able to love me for who I am?

Someday, the day will come (the day will come)
I’ll come down from the stage where the cheers have decreased
As my shoulders droop down (shoulders droop down)
My head hung low (even then)
Will you stand by my side?

Even if I lose everything, if my popularity drops
Even if I can’t sing, if I get a different job
Will you still be able to love me for who I am?

I want to ask you…

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Hyunah feat Junhyung and G.Na – A Bitter Day Lyric

April 6, 2012 Leave a comment

lagu ini pas banget sama suasana hati gue yang galau cuma gara – gara Junho dan soun yang maen bareng di reality show Music & Lyric.

Thank you to Junho who already make me like this *ngambang ngambang gak jelas*. Thank you very much!!!

 

And this is for you Junho that i feel now.

 

Romanizations

A bitter day da ireokae jiweogagaetji

Eonjaeganeun ichyeojigaetji

Na geujaeseoya utgaetjeman

Jigeumeun nado eojjeolsuga eobtnae

Nalssiga jo-ado kibuneun jeonhyeo jochi anna

Nal nolrineun geot gata gwaenhi mak hwagana

Gyeondigi himdeun sanghwangae bbajyeoseo heo-ujeokdaenae

Nawa jeong bandae saesangeun amureochido ankae jal dolagajana

Neo ddohan jal salagadeorago

It’s not fair igeon bulgongpyeonghae

Jinaganeun saramdeul shiseonjocha naegae dongjeongi dwae

Dwaeneun ili hana eobseo

Oneul achimae naeryeoya hal goseul nochyeoseo

Mundeuk ni saenggakae dwineutgae naerin injeokdeumun jeongeojangae

Oneulddara sseulsseulhaeboyeoseo geunyang nunmuri nasseo

Geureokae hanchameul geoleosseo

Mibgiman haetdeon niga saesamseuri geuriweosseo

Neol butjabeul himdoeobshi yakhaebbajyeosseotdeon jinan naleul neomu hanshimhaeseo

A bitter day da ireokae jiweogagaetji

Eonjaeganeun ichyeojigaetji

Na geujaeseoya utgaetjeman

Jigeumeun nado eojjeolsuga eobtnae

Amugeotdo halsuga eobseo

Jigeum ddo ni saenggaki naseo cham seulpeujiman

Jeongmal himi deulgaetjiman gyesok jiweobolkkae

Byeonmyeongcheoreom deulrigaetji museun maleul haedo

Ee modeungae da neol wihangeora maleul haedo

Neon naegaen neomunado gwabunhaeseo

Eo-ulriji aneun oseul geolchindeut bulpyeonhaeseo

Areumdabjiman nado niga nae yeopaeseo shideuleoganeundae

Geugeol jikyeoboneun nae gibun eoddeokaesseo

Ayae shijakeul hajimalgeol

Cheo-eum geuddae ni nuneul boji malgeol

Neol no-ajugonamyeon holgabunhaejilgeora saenggakhaetneundae geugae anideora

Ddo ibyeoleun meorineun aneundae

Ma-eumi bujeongeul mot-hadeorago

Mae-il neol geurigo ji-ugireul banbokhae

Apeungeon naega da halgae

Neon geujeo haengbokhaesseum jogaesseo

Jigeumae seontaek heotdwaeji-ankil

Huhwaehaji ankil

Neol wihae hangsang gidohalgae

A bitter day da ireokae jiweogagaetji

Eonjaeganeun ichyeojigaetji

Na geujaeseoya utgaetjeman

Jigeumeun nado eojjeolsuga eobtnae

Amugeotdo halsuga eobseo

Jigeum ddo ni saenggaki naseo cham seulpeujiman

Jeongmal himi deulgaetjiman gyesok jiweobolkkae

Jogeumssik ichyeojilgeoya

Shigani jinagamyeon useomyeo chu-eokhal su itgaetji

Shigani yakiran heunhan mal malgo

Deo hwakshilhan bangbeobeul naegae maleul haejweo

Naegae batdeon geot boda deo keun sarang badeul su isseo

Neon yeojeonhi areumdaweo

Yeongweonhalgeora haetjana

Gyeolguk urido namdeulgwa ddokgata

A bitter day da ireokae jiweogagaetji

Eonjaeganeun ichyeojigaetji

Geu nali ogaetji

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Translations

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

I might smile when the time comes

But I guess I can’t help it right now

Even though the weather is great, my mood is not

I think you’re teasing me, and I get mad

I struggle because of these situations I can’t handle

The exact opposite of me, the world continues spinning as if nothing happened

You were living just fine

It’s not fair, this is unfair

People who look at me while passing by pity me

Nothing goes right

I missed the place where I was supposed to get off at this morning

Because I suddenly thought of you, I got off at a lonesome station

Because it seemed lonely today of all days, tears just kept falling

I walked for a long time like that

I miss you, who I’ve been only hating, yet again

Because the days when I was weak with no strength to hold onto you were so pathetic

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

I might smile when the time comes

But I guess I can’t help it right now

I can’t do anything

Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now

Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you

No matter what I say, it will sound like an excuse

Even if I say that all of this was for you

Because you were too good for me

Because I was uncomfortable as if I were wearing clothes that didn’t match me

You’re beautiful, but you withered away from me

How do you think I felt while looking at that?

We should have just never started

I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes that first time

I thought I would be carefree once I let you go, but that wasn’t the case

My mind understands that we’ve separated

But my heart doesn’t want to accept it

Missing you and trying to erase you, it repeats every day

I’ll be the one to take all the pain

I’d like it if you were just happy

So that the choice I make now doesn’t go to waste

So that I don’t regret it

I’ll always pray for you

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

I might smile when the time comes

But I guess I can’t help it right now

I can’t do anything

Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now

Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you

It’ll be forgotten little by little

When time passes, I’ll be able to smile and reminisce

Instead of that common saying that time heals everything

Tell me something that actually works

You can receive so much more love than what you got from me

You’re as beautiful as ever

You said we’d be together forever

In the end, we’re the same as others

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

That day will come

 

Credits : b2st-indonesia.com

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A song from Indonesian Beauty+ LYRIC

March 12, 2012 Leave a comment

Beauty for Beast lyric

Whenever you don’t have any spirit to smile, Just call beauty!
Whenever you don’t have a friend to share, Just call us Beauty!
Whenever~ Wherever~ we will never leave you Boys..
With this song, we gonna said to you..Reff: You are my boys! We stand together and forever!

You are my boys! We sing together and make world better!

Just remember us, remember us!

We’ll be there for you..

We are beauty, beauty for you..

Don’t you know when you cry, it’ll be the same thing, beauty cry too!
Don’t you know when you laugh, it’ll be the same thing, beauty laugh too!
Whenever~ Wherever~ Beast and Beauty, we are ONE!
With this song, we gonna thank to you..
You are my boys! We stand together and forever!

Reff: You are my boys! We sing together and make world better!

Just remember us, remember us!

We’ll be there for you..

We are beauty, beauty for you..

Even if others said : “Beast are nothing..”
But, We proud to said : “BEAST are EVERYTHING!”
Once more, we gonna sing.. You are my boys! We stand together and forever!

You are my boys! We sing together and make world better!

Just remember us, remember us!

We’ll be there for you..

We are beauty, beauty for you..

We are beauty, beauty for you..

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Block B’s problem

February 25, 2012 Leave a comment

Haaaa~~~

I never thought about this!! Block B would did a conflict both for Korea and also Thailand.

— As i know, they’re “new” in Korea entertaining. *i meant, they’re already debut but they are still ‘young’ than other boyband in Korea* —

 

I just become a fans of Block B. and then, i got this news!!

oh my god!!! it’s like “someone kick me out from class without permission”

OH GOD!!!

must it happened? i won’t!!!! *told the truth!!*

 

And i just read some news that “diagnosis of P.O’s sickness”

He got SCHIZOPHRENIA. click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizophrenia if you want to know more about SCHIZOPHRENIA.

 

Feel sad that P.O in his sickness 😦

BBC *Block B’s fans name* still with you. forever. absolutely me.

 

It’s a ‘lesson’ for you guys. Please be polite if we’re in other place 🙂

 

Love you Block B 😀

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